Thursday, June 16, 2011

Summer At Last

I have to apologize once again.  A few of my friends have been asking me ..why haven't you been posting?  It's simple - I have just been incredibly busy with the closing of another school year.  Yesterday was my last day with the kids and today was a teacher work day to finish records, cleaning, etc.  I am officially off from work til the end of August.  I have been counting down the days like crazy for summer break - now it's here and I am sad.  How can I be sad when I don't have to go to work for 2 months? (you might be thinking)  I don't know - saying goodbye to my students is really hard on me and it seems to get worse each year.  When I think of it - taking care of my students is the only opportunity I have to nurture a child.  Being able to nurture children brings so much joy and fulfillment to my life.  Now that they're gone - I feel even more like I have nothing.  No one needs one relies on one looks up to me.  Therefore, I am feeling even more empty than normal.  Here is a photo of me and some of my students on the last day of school. 

(silly face photos are always the best)

I've also been busy with some family events - out of town last weekend to celebrate my nephew's 15th birthday.  It was really nice as I was able to spend some time with him, my sister, and my other nephew.  I've been really lucky because this nephew has been staying with us for the past couple weeks.  He is here to train with my husband, to get himself ready for the mountain bike national championships that we are traveling to in July.  I love having him here!  We just play around a lot and his presence definitely lights up my mood.

my nephew on his birthday - such a cutie

The weekend before that was my lil brother's high school graduation. Even though we are 11 years apart, we are super close.  I can always be silly with him, which allows me to completely take my mind off of things.    I am really looking fwd to having him close by in Milwaukee next year for college.

Lil brother & I at his h.s. graduation

So what's new with me in the trying to conceive world?  Well the saga continues and nothing really!  I was at my  doctor's office last week to do some CD3 bloodwork.  I have one day left of Clomid.  Then, back to Dr's office on Saturday for more bloodwork.  The results of this testing should give us a better of indication of my ovarian function.  The follow up appt will be sometime next week and I will be sure to update as soon as I find out. 

Even though I haven't been updating much - I have been following all of you very closely.  Thinking of you all and praying you find the strength to keep going. I sure am struggling with this.  Also, a huge wave of good luck to my friend Makelle.  She is going to take a hpt on Saturday morning to find out if her first IVF worked.  Praying for you dear!   


Krista said...

It's good to hear from you! Glad you've been having some fun with your family. I'm totally jealous that you have the next 2 months off...but I know you teachers work so hard during the school year.

Hoping this last blood work gives you some good answers! Can't wait to hear your update!

M said...

I'm glad your summer has started. I completely understand what you mean about being sad. I always count down the days and can't wait for break. This year I really thought I wouldn't cry but I still did. When you spend 170+ days, 6+ hours a day with kids you get attached! I hope your summer is relaxing.