Tuesday, September 6, 2011

Cherish Each Day

Hi everyone! I don't even know where to start. Hubby and I did indeed decide to do a HPT on Labor Day. We just decided we wanted to find out together and didn't want to anticipate the phone call any longer. So we decided I would wake up that morning and we would test. So of course I woke up at 4:30 a.m. needing to pee bad. Well, the plan was I was going to pee, take the dog out, and then hubby and I would go back into the bathroom to check the result together. I peed on the stick and stood to clean myself up. Damn splattering! Anyways, I glanced over about 30 seconds later to check to see if the test was "working" and it actually said "Pregnant". I went into the bedroom literally SHAKING and told hubby the news. We ran back into the bathroom just to look again and make sure! It was the best feeling in the world to go back to bed and just hold each other and feel HAPPY. Of course we both couldn't fall back to sleep - so it was off to an early breakfast. Right before we left, I peed again on another stick and sure enough that one was pg too. No fluke.


So today was the official first beta, which also came along with an official pregnant. When the nurse was drawing the blood, I asked her "What kind of number are we looking/hoping for at this point (10dp5dt)?" She replied with "Well, we would be happy with any number but anything over 50 at this point is considered good". I got the call about an hour later that my beta was 82.6. So, yes this definitely confirms I am pregnant, but I know the second beta is even more important than the first. I am over the moon happy to be pregnant and to have made it this far! Remember, this was the cycle that I was told I had a 15% chance to get pregnant...and the same cycle that was almost cancelled because my ovaries weren't responding. The fact that I am pregnant is SUCH a miracle. I can't even begin to express how grateful I feel.

But I know all too well what infertility does to a person. And here I sit worried sick about my second beta on Thursday. I NEED this number to not only rise, but to double (or come close to). It's a very hard position to be in, because I have been in this place before and it ended traumatically. I can't help recalling feeling this joy before, to only be devastated when it ended in a miscarrige.

At the same time I want to be HAPPY and celebrate how far we've come...embrace it...cherish it! A few of my friends have reminded me.. "Live for today" and today I am pregnant. :)

26 comments:

Tippy said...

Congrats LC!!!!! Celebrate!

Bridget said...

So happy for you! I will keep my fingers crossed for your second beta!!

M said...

Congrats!

Sarra said...

OMG!!! This is amazing news! I have been out all day between our IVF education class and acupuncture and a meeting this afternoon with friends and just got home to check blogs. I had no idea I was missing this incredible news! Congratulations!!! I know you're still tentative and afraid to really believe or trust it, but yes, cherish this time and this news. You're one huge step closer to being a Mommy! I hope and pray your second beta shows high numbers. I wonder how many you have in there?? Hehe.

amiracle4us said...

Congrats hun!!

Brant and Amanda said...

So excited for you! I will keep praying for you that everything works out. We have our doctors appointment tomorrow.

waiting and wishing said...

Omg!!!! I am SOOOOO excited for you! I can understand the fear in that dang second beta- I'll be praying for great news. Now, enjoy this, every single day it lasts- I'm trying to prepare myself to do the same.... Show me how it's done!!

Cherbear said...

HUUUGE CONGRATS!!!!!

Lauren and Brian said...

YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am absolutely thrilled for you! They were right about the "good luck charm" at transfer. I am absolutely thrilled for you guys! praying for a great beta Thursday! Big hugs!

Cherm said...

OMG, OMG, OMG!!!! Jumping up and down over here!! Congrats!! YES! Cherish this time and hold on to it with both hands. In this moment YOU. ARE. PREGNANT!! So excited for you! Crossing my fingers for an awesome 2nd beta!

amy said...

YaY!! Just the news I've been stalking your blog to find ;) You are so right in saying that "today you are pregnant"...that positive, calm attitude will help you tremendously get through to the next beta!!

Keep us posted, I'll be praying :)
What a blessing!!

Drevas said...

O...M...G... I AM SO HAPPY FOR YOU!!! I have been following along and I am so, so, SO excited to see this news! I am so excited for you! I will be praying for strong numbers for beta #2! Congrats!

Lulu said...

Congrats! Can't wait for the results of Beta 2

Jessica said...

OMG!!! So excited for you! You are in my prayers!

E and R said...

YAY!!! Congratulations!!!! I am super excited for you!

A m a n d a said...

Congratulations!! Good luck on Thursday, fingers crossed :)

Andrea said...

I am BEYOND happy for you and your hubby, (and Buckwheat too!!) :) Sending you lots of positive vibes for a super high beta tomorrow!! It's ok to worry and be nervous...But don't forget to ENJOY every second too!!

hopeful said...

congratulations! that is so wonderful!

annoyed army wife said...

Congrats! Great news!

~B~ said...

Yay! Congratulations! I am praying that you keep receiving good news with your second beta.

Nini said...

Congrats!! I'm your newest follower here and also a TTC-er. Going to keep you in my thoughts that your beta only keeps increasing and nothing but positive vibes surround you.

Just Us & A Miracle Baby too! said...

I am so happy for you!!!! CONGRATS MAMA!!

Lauren and Brian said...

I had to come back again today to tell you again how EXCITED I am for you!!!! :) :)

Jessica said...

Your in my thought today.. I hope everything goes great!

Do I Have to Be a D.I.N.K.? said...

OMG! Congrats! I am so excited for you! I can't wait to hear your second beta number!

Dana Lynn said...

YES YES YES!!!!! AMAZING NEWS!! Congrats! This is soooo exciting!! I have a great feeling this is it and you will have your precious baby finally!!! I am beyond happy for you both! Enjoy every moment!!