Thursday, September 22, 2011

Not This Time

Ultrasound did not go well this morning. Talk about an empty sac. There was a fetal pole, but that's it. RE said according to measurements it looked like it had stopped growing 3-4 days ago. Next step- decide if I wanna miscarry naturally or have a d&c.

My worst nightmare has become the reality in which I live.

33 comments:

Krista said...

I am so so so terribly sorry to hear this. It is so unfair....I can't imagine how you are feeling right now. I'm just so sorry C.....I so wanted this for you.

Cherbear said...

My heart dropped when I read your title. I am so so sorry. Why??? Reiterating Krista's sentiment...this is OH so unfair!

waiting and wishing said...

I am so sorry. I know all too well that there are no words that can make this day, or the ones ahead, any easier, but please know that I'm praying for you.

~B~ said...

I am so sorry and my heart is breaking for you. Please know there are so many on here that support you. You will be in my prayers.

Jessica said...

I am so sorry LC, my heart breaks for you. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

Sarra said...

Oh no, LC, my heart just goes out to you. I had to read the post several times before I even let myself believe it. It's so unfair. I am thinking of you and you are in my prayers. My heart breaks for what you are going through.

K said...

I am so sorry - my heart goes out to you. Making the choice to move forward is never an easy one, we ended up scheduling a D&C, as I couldn't take the thought of waiting.

What I would recommend though since the dates are so recent is asking for some follow-up beta tests to check numbers and a second u/s in a few days to confirm 100%.

*hugs*

Andrea said...

I know there is nothing anyone can say to lessen this pain for you, so just know that you are incredibly loved and have so many prayers being said for you today, tomorrow, the next day...

I don't understand why this happens, and I never will. Love and HUGS.

amy said...

Oh how my heart hurts for you right now, this is not the way it was supposed to go. Just not right. We will never understand why things like this happen. Words are just not enough right now, I'm so so sorry. I will be praying for you sweet girl.

Bridget said...

I'm so sorry to hear this. I am thinking of you- hugs!

K. said...

i am so sorry for your loss, sending hugs and prayers...

Heather @ A Little Hope in My Pocket said...

I'm so so sorry. Many prayers for you.

Lulu said...

Oh honey. I am so, so sorry. I can't imagine. We are here for you.

Mrs BabyDream said...

Oh no, I'm so sorry to hear this.

Kelli said...

LC I'm so sorry to read this. Are you going to have any more tests done? Thinking of you.

E and R said...

I am so very sorry. Thinking of you.

Brant and Amanda said...

My heart aches for you. I know we haven't known each other long, but when I read your post I just cried. I am so so sorry. I wish I had words of wisdom for you, but I know how much it can ache. Don't think that you have to be positive all the time. You can have those down days. You are entitled to them. I have been thinking about you a lot. If you are on facebook come find me: Amanda Fawson Hanson.

Pam said...

I'm so sorry :o( I really thought this was going to be you time. My heart is breaking for you. I wish there was some way to make this easier.

Cherm said...

Oh LC!!!! My heart is just breaking for you right now....I don't know what to say except that I agree with K up there...maybe getting some back up data just to make sure. Praying that u/s was mistaken and maybe he/she is just a little further behind than they thought...also prayer for serenity for you...sending you big (((hugs)))!!

Erin said...

Love you! I've been thinking of you all day and my heart is hurting for you guys. I'm so sorry! You are an amazing person and I'm always here for you. Xoxo

Just Us & A Miracle Baby too! said...

I'm so sorry.. My heart aches for you and I wish there were words to help heal the pain. I will be praying for you, stay strong.

Cori said...

I am so sorry! That is just not fair. I am praying for you and your Hubby!!!!

NewYearMum2.blogspot.com said...

Hi... here from Krista's blog. So sorry to hear about what you're going through... a similar thing happened to me after my last IVF cycle - it's so hard to go through. Thinking of you and sending hugs from afar xoxo

Dana Lynn said...

My heart just broke for you. I can't believe this has happened to you... again. I am so very sorry. There are really no words to even make an impact on the pain you are feeling. You and your husband are in my thoughts.

Do I Have to Be a D.I.N.K.? said...

I am so sorry to hear this sweetie. My heart is breaking for you. I know there is nothing anyone can say to ease your pain but know that we are thinking of you.

I chose to have the D&C after I waited for a week and a half and my body was not doing anything. I just wanted it all to be over.

amiracle4us said...

LC.....I am so so sorry. This is not fair!!! I know the pain you are feeling and know we are all here thinking about you and sending you hugs and love. Email if you need to scream. xo

Tippy said...

I'm so sorry LC. Big huge hugs coming your way. Wish there was something I could say.

Marianne said...

Stopping by from Krista's blog to tell you how sorry I am.

hopeful said...

oh, LC i am so sorry. Praying and hurting for you. It's just not fair.

Nini said...

I'm so sorry LC. I know nothing will take away the pain and hurt right now. Praying for you and keeping you in my thoughts

Kristen {www.buckupbuttercup.net} said...

I'm so sorry for your loss. Sending prayers your way...

Brant and Amanda said...

LC just wanted to let you know I have been thinking about you.

Lisa said...

Oh how sorry I am to read this post. There's nothing I can say to really help, but I can definitely say I am praying for you. And yes, God definitely can use our trials for His glory in so many ways. He will never waste a hurt if we allow Him to use us.