Sunday, February 12, 2012

15 Weeks

I have a lot on my mind and I really don't even know where to start, so I apologize if this post is all over the place.

Tomorrow is 15 weeks - I can't believe it. Every morning I wake up and just thank God for giving me another day of this pregnancy. It still doesn't feel real. I'm still having trouble allowing myself to feel excited. I've been let down so many times, it's hard to accept that this could possibly turn out good. My biggest struggle the past three months has been letting go of the fear and it continues to be an ongoing challenge. Those of you that have experienced miscarriage/s before, is there ever a point in your current pregnancy where you were just able to completely let go and be excited?

I did take a step forward this weekend...a big step forward. I purchased my first round of maternity clothing. I was really getting sick of wearing leggings to work nearly every day and the one pair of dress pants I had left were officially too snug. And wow what a difference the new clothing makes. My favorite buy was a pair of maternity skinny jeans - super cute and SO comfortable. I'm actually a bit shocked at how much I grew this past week. I was going to try and make it one more week at work before spilling the news, but I don't think I'm going to make it. The plan is to tell my principal tomorrow morning before work and just go from there with the rest of the staff.

I went ahead and ordered a Doppler and it arrived last Tuesday. I LOVE IT!!! :) I was surprised with how quickly we found baby's heartbeat the first couple times using it. When I decided to get one, I told myself I would use it like once every few days or so. Well, that has not been happening. I have been using every single day. It just helps to provide myself with that extra reassurance that everything is okay in there. I got the Sonoline B (3hz) and would highly recommend it.

Symptoms wise - My nausea really seems to kick in the evening after dinner. I haven't been sleeping all that well -waking up numerous times throughout the night with an upset stomach. My body is still demanding 10+ hours of sleep each night.

My midwife called on Friday evening with our NT results. It was a great way to start the weekend because all the tests came back "normal" and negative for Downs. She didn't give me specific numbers/odds - but I'm sure I'll get more details at my next appt.

Speaking of the next appt....I'm looking forward to an appointment with our OB this upcoming Thursday afternoon. :)


M said...

I'm so glad you're doing well. That is the doppler I have too. I said I wouldn't use it every day either, but I do. It's great for extra reassurance! I find myself getting more excited but I still worry all the time.

Our Journey Through This Lovely Life said...

I am happy to hear you are doing well! I have been looking at those dopplers! I am still to early to use one but I think I may just have to invest! Good luck with telling your co workers! I am sure you will be showered with excitement and love! Have a great week!

amiracle4us said...

So happy things are going so well! I can't believe you made it that far without maternity pants...I wish!
Have fun telling the coworkers...goodness knows you will get lots of hugs and congrats that you deserve :)
as for the nausea...still?? I was really hoping this would be my last week of that stuff.

Lisa said...

Praise the Lord! I am thrilled for you! I will continue to pray for you and your little miracle!

Mrs. H said...

I'm so glad everything is progressing smoothly with your pregnancy. I can definitely understand the cautiousness and it taking some getting used to, especially after having experienced losses in the past. Continuing to pray that this pregnancy is uneventful and you have your beautiful take home baby. The doppler sounds like a good idea.

Corinne said...

that is great news. Happy 15 weeks

Sarra said...

Congratulations on 15 weeks! Isn't it crazy how fast time starts to move? Also glad to hear that all is well with the baby and your tests came back great. Are you going to find out the baby's gender? Sounds like everything is great, and I hope you get to a place soon where you can relax and know that this is real!!

Cherm said...

Yippeee!! Glad all is going well! It's definitely a big step to buy maternity clothes and so fun too. It makes it a bit more real. For me the fear didn't really start going away until right about 14-15 weeks. When you start feeling him/her move around everyday it's even better! It's an amazing feeling and just all that more reassuring. :)